It’s been two years since I attended a several-month training on embodied intimacy in Sweden. The essence of that experience was contained in a phrase that Buster Rådvik, the lead facilitator, used to repeat: “Into me I see”.
My understanding is that when I turn inward—not through a mental or abstract act of focusing, but through awareness of my physical senses and the present moment—I begin to see with greater clarity. I see myself, others, and the world in a different light: clearer, less heavy, and less distorted by the patterns of habitual thought, culture, or conditioning.
I am not sure I am reflecting exactly what Buster wanted to transmit. This is, though, how I assimilate it, and it has served me well.
Today, I’m engaged in another learning journey, this time online. There’s no dancing or physical interactions, yet the sessions are filled with thought-provoking insights and breakout rooms where the challenge of trusting myself in the presence of others remains very alive.
Robin Alfred, holding the space, shared a Zen Buddhist insight: Meditation is the pathway to spontaneous right action.
“The more the condition inside me is spacious and refined”, reflects Alfred, “the more a spontaneous right action emerges”.
Lately, self-doubt has pressed in from many directions. Is my writing enough? Does my dance truly make a difference? Is all this solitude leading anywhere, or am I simply keeping myself too comfortable? I sit with these questions, often carrying the discomfort of not finding answers.
But then, at moments, another voice arises: you keep at it… double down and expand.
I am not called to join a political party or start chanting slogans in a protest, not today, but I’ll certainly see myself being present there, guided or led by what I found in those long periods of stillness.
An intention emerges: Every day, a space to connect to source. Every day, making more room to transmit.
Into me I see.
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Stay attuned
